Should i give up on the love?
Should i really just be normal friends with her?
What will happen if i really give up on her?
Will my heart be lonely again?
Will my soul fly out of my body again?
Will my wings become harden with wax, unable to fly again?
Will my legs just stop walking?
Will my mind really stop thinking of her??

i dunno.. i really dunno whether i should give up on her or not...
i know its a foolish stuff to had a crush or should i say love on someone who has bf..
i cannot control my feelings for her..
i just love her in the bottom of my heart..
the feeling..

the feelings..

the feelings i had for her now, is exactly the same when i had my first love.
sweet
pure
fun
lovely
romantic

she makes my day light up with hope.
the feeling for her is intense..
i cannot control the love for her..
the feelings is so unexplainable..

i just dunno.
whether should i give up or not.
i'm so jealous when she call her bf
i'm so jealous when she so close with her bf
i'm so jealous when she talks about her bf
i'm so jealous that she even take a chance to book a flight to see her bf.
why is it that i have to love someone at the wrong time always..
why can't i be the guy to know her first..

sadly..
i just want to be with her..
i still can sense her presence in my heart..
i can still somehow recognise the perfume she wearing..

i dunno...
i'm in a pathetic state now.

maybe i should really give up my love for her..

be friends?
can i really do that?
can i really give up that kind of love?
can i really erase that marks that was left in my heart?
can i really do it.. can i? can i?


i dunno.
maybe i should try.
i might try.
i might want to forget.

i might want to wait longer for my true fate?





wait?


give up?


tell me what to do...