Me, Myself & I

2010-01-19T18:51:00.001+08:00

when will you be able to feel the love i had for you?
the things i had done..
the moments that i try to be with you?

when will be the time..?

2009-12-29T21:55:00.001+08:00

woah yea~
imma on leave from 30 dec 2009 to 3rd jan 2010!
do ask me out if ya free on any of these days!
prefered no to spend! HAHAHHA

2009-12-27T20:44:00.002+08:00

poor blog.
im back here to write on ya.
sorry for abandoning you so long.
Geez. haha its been a while since i last blog.
well, im already a one year soldier. another year and i'll be through.
2009 is going to pass on soon.
2010 is coming~
pretty much to do in 2010.
get a license before i ORD.
get my room newly renovated with my own design.
hone my skills in basketball.
spice up my life with more social activities.
revise back all my interior software skills.
be a better person
slim down back again!
and most importantly,
get myself a girlfriend!

yea.. there so much to do! rarr...
hope it will be a better 2010!

2009-10-28T19:13:00.003+08:00

October

Its nearly reaching the end of october.
Life has been the same
Nothing much changes.
Yes. i grown fat.
yes indeed.
the hardwork i done in BMT
its all back to square one.
wadever.
i guess can train myself back to shape again.

well, at least for this month, i get to touch back some design stuffs.
some product design and fashion design which i didn't learn at all during my life in NAFA.
Never mind.

Well nothing much happen for me.
i suppose i end my post now.
take care friends

2009-09-07T19:34:00.000+08:00

September.

time has never stop, it flew faster.
right now, i'm already a nine month soldier.
1 year 3 months to go.
so waiting for it.
life have been in a mess for me..
my parents recently had a big quarrel, however seems like things have gone back to normal.
my time in NS are just a bore to me, duties, escorts, and more duties..
unlike duty day, which is 24 hours, i been going home everyday, like a normal office guy.
nothing interesting.

sometimes, i actually wonder,
what is life to me?
what are my goals? a designer? is it true that i really want to become a designer?
what will happen to me when i grow older?
i can i do when i finish my NS life?

right now, i'm totally lost in a mist of woods.
wandering around aimlessly..

yea. this is me right now..
Justin, the wanderer..

an aimless guy
a boring guy
a loveless guy.

i really want to search for answers
what should i really do in life
what exactly are my goals in this lifetime

September.

i known her for like almost a year.
i remember the first time i know her, she was the first to ask me out.
and i was surprised.
the first look at her, i thought she was the one.
however, it seems impossible now.
the distance between us, has already grow further and further.
right now,
she's happy with her current life, with her bf, her schoolmates and her usual friends.

i feel happy for her.
i really do.
well, seeing her studying hard again, i feel contented.
at least, i manage to convince her to persue her dreams.
the dream for fashion.
she studying hard right now, and have already moved on to the next step of her life.
i wish you the best, ______.. all the best.

September.

i should start finding my true goals.
i should move on now..

moving on..

signing off.

2009-08-29T21:08:00.000+08:00

grab my hands
lean on my shoulder
free yourself
i shall bring you to the greatest height.

Soar
fly
reach out for the sky
and purify ur minds and soul.

2009-07-28T20:09:00.000+08:00

if u are seeing this,
i just wanna tell you that,
i want you to lead ur own life from now on.
i shall not disturb you any of your life,
i shall not interfere you with any stuffs,
i will not tell you that i love you anymore.

its hard for me to say goodbye,
but i have to do it.
i already made up my mind,
that i shall not bother u with relationship stuff anymore.
Carry on with your life ahead,
live it to the fullest,
spend your time with other good stuffs,
your family, your boyfriend, you dearesr friends that are with you all along.
i pray for you that you'll be fine all along.
you better take care of yourself,
study hard to persue ur dream as a fashion designer, i can only guide u into that for now,
the rest will be up to you for u to persue ur dreams.

but dun you forget, even i have say goodbye,
i will always be the guardian angel behind your back.
praying for you, cheering and rooting for you.
you will always have my support, my spirit with u,
cause u have already taken a piece of my heart..

ps: i love you..

2009-07-18T15:06:00.003+08:00

天可不可能变亮

虽然已习惯无止境的黑暗

明天我只凭想像

轻轻触摸你幸福微笑脸庞

即使命运早已向我摊牌

我还是要对她耍赖

愿意光先走被取代

换一点未来

只是爱你也难恨你也难

割舍的勉强

国境千帆也许遗忘

我悲伤的悲伤

爱你够难想像更难

永远有遗憾

辛苦是谁的泪在逃

当是好梦终于做完

2009-07-04T12:44:00.001+08:00

SIMPLICITY
is the word.
New style.
Lazy to create,
only use the templates available.
but seems cool.

i miss her

2009-05-18T19:21:00.002+08:00

Went out again with her to catch Angel and Demons.

miss her alot sia...
i miss her presence really,
i was so happy that when i see her waiting for me at the mrt,
i'm so happy when i saw her again,
i'm just too happy to see her.

however, the moment she say her bf here and there,
i feel as in my heart dropped heavy,
my mind goes blank,
i dun wish to talk,
haiss.. maybe really..
i'm just a normal guy in her eyes.

i guess about it.
Yes, i do love her.
But she dun love me.
i probably just a normal friend to her.
but to me, im a guardian angel that will stay by her side...
when she down,
she angry,
she happy,
i'll try my best to be with her, making her feel pampered.

i just want a chance..
to be able to love her officially..
to be able to stand by her..

well, if she can really see this...
just want to tell her..

i love her
bottom for my heart and my soul.

2009-05-17T14:23:00.000+08:00

i'm trying to forget..

but i just cannot control thinking of you...

i even dreamt of you..

every hour, minutes and seconds i just wanna talk to you..

i miss ur presence...

i miss you.

2009-05-07T21:04:00.002+08:00

Should i give up on the love?
Should i really just be normal friends with her?
What will happen if i really give up on her?
Will my heart be lonely again?
Will my soul fly out of my body again?
Will my wings become harden with wax, unable to fly again?
Will my legs just stop walking?
Will my mind really stop thinking of her??

i dunno.. i really dunno whether i should give up on her or not...
i know its a foolish stuff to had a crush or should i say love on someone who has bf..
i cannot control my feelings for her..
i just love her in the bottom of my heart..
the feeling..

the feelings..

the feelings i had for her now, is exactly the same when i had my first love.
sweet
pure
fun
lovely
romantic

she makes my day light up with hope.
the feeling for her is intense..
i cannot control the love for her..
the feelings is so unexplainable..

i just dunno.
whether should i give up or not.
i'm so jealous when she call her bf
i'm so jealous when she so close with her bf
i'm so jealous when she talks about her bf
i'm so jealous that she even take a chance to book a flight to see her bf.
why is it that i have to love someone at the wrong time always..
why can't i be the guy to know her first..

sadly..
i just want to be with her..
i still can sense her presence in my heart..
i can still somehow recognise the perfume she wearing..

i dunno...
i'm in a pathetic state now.

maybe i should really give up my love for her..

be friends?
can i really do that?
can i really give up that kind of love?
can i really erase that marks that was left in my heart?
can i really do it.. can i? can i?

i dunno.
maybe i should try.
i might try.
i might want to forget.

i might want to wait longer for my true fate?

wait?

give up?

tell me what to do...

2009-05-06T20:24:00.002+08:00

i realise something..
doing duties must do with someone u can talk with!!

do duties without someone that can talk well with ah, time past super SLOWWWWWWW...
but with someone u can talk with, u won't even notice the time lo!..
haha now must try and blend into the environment already, already been doing that.. so kinda good.
but still need to adjust my life to this kind of things ba, quite lifeless, cause my vocation is all about duties.. rarr..

anyway, need to plan my time well, so that can go out, enjoy and chill, as well as work hard enough..

alrights..
tomorrow my OFF day, first official off day used. haha.. gonna make use of it wisely!
thats all i blog.. take care guys~

-miss her presence-

2009-05-04T20:56:00.003+08:00

Duty finally started, but im not craving for duties, cause its the most sickening job u every want to do. RARR!..

it just like guard duties! i think without sleep i will drop dead soon!..
rarr, waiting for my next pay day! to buy either psp or movie screener mp4 to entertain at nights.!!!

anyway take care guys! feel free sms me~

2009-04-25T21:58:00.002+08:00

Wonderful Saturday.
25 April 2009

Went out with her to orchard, although shes late for 45 mintues? hahahah well, feels good to see her again anyway after so much understanding recently went on.
well met her to go art friend to buy studs for her to design shoes, however, instead of her buying things, i bought my stuffs. haha cause she didn't find her studs, or i should say couldn't find her studs. so decided to go penisular to find studs again.. however bad stuffs happen.
that stupid shop keeping force us to stay at the shop, in a very threatening tone, causing her to have a shock of her life. God damn the guy, luckily i was there right beside her , covering up for her, otherwise she cannot even come out of the shop.

well den went to bugis to shop and chill, and back to orchard and had dinner tgt.
a very nice day~~~

well, just being with her makes my heart feels warm, i dun mind even walking with her around the streets, i just want her to be happy, seeing her happy face would just make me smile.
well, i guess, i really fallen deep in love with her...
thinking of being with her is already becoming a dream, yet i refused to let go, i just want to cling onto hope, even if its one percent, i dun mind waiting..
i dun mind just being a man behind an angel.. just let me see ur face, ur smile, i will feel good.

thanks for allowing me to carry on with u as a friend, allowing me to be the man that secretly hiding behind u. thanks..

-jus-

2009-03-31T20:08:00.003+08:00

21
21
21
21
21 !!

21, the age of freedom
the age of happiness,
the age of maturity,
the age of carefulness!

today is my birthday~
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday happy birthdayyyyyyy
happy birthday to meeeeeeeeeee~

well, although its my 21st,
nothing special.
just that i manage to fire BLANKS hahah!
manage to take a cab home?
manage to sleep well..
really nothing much happen to me on my 21st..

however, need to thank those that really still remember my birthday~
su yee, weiting, shin nie, shyoe, carrie, sheena .. ryan.. gabriel..nizam
thanks guys/girls for all ya best wishes!
may god bless you guys also ~

well, not to my expectations.. hahah
sadly though, cause i only waiting for her sms only.. but.. didn't manage to get it..
so too bad..
haha..

anyway

thats all~

2009-03-29T18:34:00.001+08:00

Girls' Sixth Sense Is So Accurate!!

i can't believe it.
i kept the secret for so good.
i kept my limit as a good friend instead of jio-ing you.
i kept my ownself for telling you the truth.
i did not interupt the relationship between you and your bf.
i only do what a friend has to do.

BUT..

how come you can feel that i love you!!???
i just do not understand..
that means girls' sixth sense is super accurate!!

2009-03-25T19:18:00.000+08:00

18 march is my date of POP! pass out successfully!

Now living my life as a new person.. going to get through this 2 years!

rarr!! hunt you down!

2009-03-13T22:03:00.002+08:00

well well,
finally decided to blog..
been in NS for 3 months le.
time flies..
and im going to POP in 3 more days..
the feeling of happiness, sadness, anger have already shown in my bmt experience which is meaningful to me...

i'm good.. able to survive this 3 months..
now praying to get to a good vocation..
once again, thank god for giving me a wonderful and enjoyable time in BMT.

anywa friends, do take care too. =)

2009-03-06T20:58:00.001+08:00

one more week to POP~

2009-02-01T12:05:00.001+08:00

33 more days without weekend to POP.

lonely... i'm so lonely....
i am nobody...

2009-01-11T18:25:00.001+08:00

empty life..
empty heart..
empty feelings..

just wanan get out of tekong soon.

all the best xiang.. good luck!

perservere!

2009-01-01T13:40:00.000+08:00

Goodbye 2008..

WELCOME 2009~
with my botak head.

2008-12-25T19:36:00.000+08:00

NS LIFE..

2008-11-10T21:06:00.001+08:00

EVERYTHING IS SETTLED!
THANKS GIRLS FOR YOUR UNDERSTANDING.
now ignore the post below.

HAHA

2008-11-07T18:44:00.003+08:00

WEAKLING!
im a total weakling

im fat
im oversized
im useless
im evil
im bad
im lazy
i've bad temper
i've big stomach
i've super loud voice
i've no talent in anything
im bad in studies.
im bad in basketball
im bad in jogging
i got no stamina
i got no will power
i got no money
i got no job
im just waiting for NS

im a total perfect weakling.

do you still think i'm good for you?

so do you think im can be a very good boyfriend to you?

NO!!

bad timing..
i have no mood for relationship..
all i want is to really get my fitness back and get ready for NS.
and who will expect that two girls came at the same time and ask..

just how the hell am i going to handle now..
have i 犯桃花？
oh no...
can someone tell me what should i do now...

please.. oh god..

我真的很想交往。。
但我根本不能在你们两个人做出选择。。
这毕竟会让你们的友情有摩擦。。
我也不想伤害你们两人。。
这虽然是很难，
但我希望我们三个还是好朋友。。。
因为我不想伤害我们之间的友谊。。
希望你们真的谅解。。。

不要在逼我捉出选择。。

2008-11-04T20:58:00.001+08:00

Jogging Jogging Jogging..

Cramps, Crampins Crampings...

Slim Slim Slim...

Lets Kill!

2008-10-19T14:18:00.001+08:00

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force.

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.
Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

2008-10-18T19:32:00.000+08:00

Enlistment on the 3rd Dec
Posted to Pulau Tekong BMTC school 1
finally..
tha mark from become a boy to a man.

2008-09-22T12:23:00.003+08:00

Alright.
this week is the switching timing week!
which is..
I'm gonna work midnight!
11 - 7 am!
woots..
crazy.

im crazy!

2008-09-17T18:03:00.002+08:00

well well, week 2 ending soon in borders.
Somehow already familiar with the system in borders.
however im still stuck at remembering the locations of each section coz too many le.
so i still need time to remember.
Kinda sucky coz next week gonna do midnight shift which is from 11pm to 6am.
is like WTH! people sleeping we working. Sianz!!!!
hopefully its a good time to actually memorise the locations coz wil be working without a single customer.

alrights.
recently been feeling empty inside my heart.
i dunno why.
is like im thinking why am i in this world.
working for money.
sleeep.
eaat.
shit.
work.
its so boring and typical.
i tried to establish good relations with colleagues and friends.
well, some busy, some not in society.
i been so lonely.

indeed
LONELY is the word.

i wanna just make more friends ma.
but when i talk, i always tend to talk straight and offend people.
just how can i change this.
well, if i stay quiet, they think im arrogant, dun willing to socialise.
haix.
life is in dilemma ( is this the spelling?)

i just feel so empty..

empty is the word.

is it that i realli need someone by my side?
i just dunno.
i dun have the quality to find a life partner.
im still "immature"
i dunno the world well.
i dun have money.
i dun own a house, a car, a bike.
all i have is myself.
and my fats.

damn it.
signing off..

2008-09-14T12:32:00.002+08:00

alrights. week 1 ended in borders.
not bad. im still trying to memorize the locations of different genres of books.
well, i also got to adjust my timing to wake up around 5am.
though its quite difficult, but i can do it. alrights, thats all for work.

well friends, if u guys happen to vvisit my blog, do tag me, and tell me ur blog link also.
i want to create another new section for my linkies.
so thanks guys! appreciated.

alrights. thats all for now.

So Long..!

2008-09-10T19:15:00.000+08:00

Hey. Im back at blogging duh.
Well, i started working in borders now.
Today is my last day of training and will be separating from the batch that came with us.
Yup, so will be reporting to work everyday at 7am, until my shift over which is 4pm.
so if u wanna come and find me,
feel free to do so~
its wheelock place borders.
which is orchard borders la..
hahah..
it quite fun, if u have the positive attitude.
So take care guys~

2008-08-31T16:15:00.002+08:00

I KNOW WAD U DID LAST SUMMER!

RARRR!!

STUPID MSN!!

HOW COME IT DOESN'T WORK ON MY NEW DESKTOP!!

I AM SO F***KING ANGRY!!

DEAR FRIENDS, IF YA GOT PROBLEMS JUST SMS/CALL ME

IM OUTTA OF MSN FOR A WHILE

IM SO PISSED!

I GUESS I SHOULD USE ENGLISH VERSION OF OPERATING SYSTEM ON MY COMP INSTEAD OF CHINESE VERSION!

I NEEDA BUY AGAIN!!! DAMN..

2008-08-22T21:35:00.002+08:00

yeayea~ im blgging again..
so excited wor.
just went fresh imp for interview.
didn't expect the interviewer so young la! haha
well, im not excited about this la
haha.
im excited to get my own creation back!
a super duper gaming desktop!
specially for gaming!
wakakka watch out for it dudes.
i shall post the picture soon.
Cya

2008-08-21T19:13:00.013+08:00

Pictures of my convocation is up!
Nafa Convocation 2008 , 16 August 2006 @ Singapore Conference Hall

Nice View Isn't it?

Two Guest Entry Tickets

The look of the conference hall, nice isn't it?
we are suppose not to take pictures of the area...

Entry of diploma & degree students. Spot me?

getting to the seats....

Arise for our national anthem

Hearing the speech from guest of honour

Arrival of the "colours": the president, the professors, masters and the H.O.Ds of NAFA

Shall we start???

Tadaaaaa~~ Honour of receiving the scroll from NAFA's president

well, that ghostly figure that walk past is me..

So long...

Feel like sleeping..

Finally, the scrolls are given out to all...

"Colours" leaving the stage and the hall

and finally!! out we goes!!

officially diploma students!

weeee~

mark of new journey~

thats all..

ciaozzzz

2008-08-15T21:49:00.001+08:00

faint hope left..
theres nothing i can do now..
i will be strong and go on...

tmr having convocation.
well, feel good.
nothing much.. thats all.

2008-08-11T20:05:00.002+08:00

this lil boy just want to forget now..
forget this unimaginable love for this lil girl..

why?

he saw photos of the lil girl and her bf..
they were lovely..
happy..
passionate..

he couldn't bring himself..
his heart is slowly tearing away..

he just want to forget..

2008-08-10T21:31:00.002+08:00

somewhere around this earth, lives a lil boy name "S",
who is very fortunate to be born into this world.
everyday, he went to school, doing the same old routine, study..eat..sleep..playing..study..eat...sleepp...
well, kinda boring for this lil buy.
but he is satisfied for this kind of life..
cause he had no complaints..

indeed, this boy is satisfied, until the very single day.
he met this lil girl,
'A' , teaches this boy alot of things that he didn't know..
well, to cut things short, 'A' changes this lil boy life completely

day by day, both of them grew close to each other,
becoming the best friends..
however, this lil boy does not think that way..
he was fond of this lil girl she met..
day by days, this uncondition love grew bigger..
even realising that lil girl already had someone in mind,
this boy refused to stop the feeling..
because he loves her.

yes.. he ..loves.. her..

struggling in his own mind,
telling himself to control,
not to spoilt the friendship between him and her.
he sacrifice himself..
laying deep under his pillows
just to tell himself,
never to leak it out..

well, he did..

he just want to see her happy,
well, to see her being happy, makes himself happy..

..

..

this is unconditioned love..

2008-08-09T19:57:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 43rd NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE~!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
HAHAX

CHEERS!

2008-08-05T21:25:00.003+08:00

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從跌倒失敗也曾經守在陰霾

不看不聽不說傻傻的發呆難道我就被打敗

多幸運有你使我的生命充滿希望

從今之後不在垂頭喪氣走開所有人的期待讓我站起來

甩掉了主敗從今全打開我終於明白

fly 盡全力在飛起來沒有後悔不後退

我讓你刮目相看 just fly 向世界證明我存在

努力過的汗水不斷灌溉美好未來

cause I can fly yes I can fly Oh I believe

yes I believe I believe Oh I believe I can fly

2008-08-05T21:14:00.002+08:00

LALA~

2008-07-17T20:08:00.002+08:00

well, well,
imma going blog now after so long.
imma still slacking, doing odd jobs around, waiting long for my enlistment letter (stupidly which haven even reach my doorstep, and imma gonna curse the ministry for not sending fast to me)
designing around, starting up my design for FDA 2009, which is to be submitted soon.
well, everything is fine for me..
mum urging me to find a job(she always think imma so quiet until i dun want find job), which terribly couldn't find something suitable for me.

well nevermind.
imma going to open a blogshop selling printed tees, which visually design by my own. well, im still researching alot.. printing tees shop and the price, graphic treatment,
well, target audience already thought of, which is suppose to target fashion gurus, teenagers all that la..
so quite tiring la, still in the process of learning illustrator.
hopefully it will be a success for me.

anyway i guess its time to go for my gaming session.
take care dudes
later...

2008-07-02T22:13:00.002+08:00

back in blogging! haha..
finally after letting this blog to rot for a long time..

well, been working as a temporary staff in giordano at century square for a week until 8th july.
needa find another job before this finish.
still okay this job. just fold clothes, talk here and there... boring shit.
just too boring...

haha.. yea
nothing to say, simply just boring!!

SOMEONE ENTERTAIN ME PLEASE!!

hahas

2008-06-10T13:57:00.006+08:00

来来！

大家！

一起学华语！
哈哈

我看我今日要用华语来写我的部落阁 < 不懂是这个阁，还是这个格，还是有其他。。哈哈〉

算了。。

最近忙着在找工作，在家玩电脑，已经变得很郁闷。。

好难受啊。。希望明天的interview能通过。。

还要去找其他的，也不可能叫我等吧。。

真是烦人啊。。当兵的信都还没来。。到底要我等到几时？？

我快要发疯了！！

好啦。。我现在在发些照片。。哈哈。。好久阿，还没有毕业展的所有照片。。

好。。发了！！

from left to right: Jessie, ME, Claudine ok.. this pic blur.. add another one in..

ok one last one.. hahaha

Yea yea This is me.. HAHA.. the huggable, lil roasted bear! too much nicks.. hahaha...

yea surprised.. thats me! who cares.. going army liao.. hahaha..

ok thats all.. ciaos

2008-06-05T21:53:00.006+08:00

New Blog Layout~ whee~~
long time no blog liao.. just been so boring to blog la..

laziness is another factor..

just plain lazy...

ever since after graduation show.. been doing nothing.. except for slacking slacking and more slacking... just feel so empty in my mind and heart now.. dunno what to do next..

my NS letter still haven come.. irritating... waiting for so long le still haven come!

sian la... if you guys got any freelance job.. feel free to contact me via email or msn..

gladly appreciated!

haha.. anyway.. i think im gonna upload some photos..

The Class of Talented Exhibition Designers <--- Proudly produce by Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts
Some of Grad Show Pictures to upload... still got alot haven take leh..

Cityscape : A Rhythmic Cadence

View Of Our Grad Show.. Theres more at the back... but i only take photo of this area only.. ahhaha

yup and these is my panel~ hahah! very messy uh~ hahah.. but thats my style~ HAHHA..

alright that all i gonna put.. tiring to wait for photos to upload.. hahaha...

ciaoz.. more photos will be uploaded~

2008-05-20T22:48:00.002+08:00

And Yes...
Today is our graduation show ceremony.
It has been wonderful 3 years in NAFA..

Life has been tedious for me this 3 years. but i manage to pull through..
Congrats to all friends that also struggle through these 3 years..

anyway thats all i will blog...
pictures for the opening will be up soon...

cya!

2008-05-11T12:25:00.005+08:00

time for blog again...

current i'm busying preparing my Grad show which is coming soon..

been thinking about my presentation layout..

however my whole concept and images are the same.. due to the fact that there is not enough time for me to change my whole idea.. therefore remain it ba..

finally.. its my grad show.. hopefully its a good one..

to my friends, here more detail about my grad show.. do come and seee it~~

2008-04-28T21:12:00.004+08:00

Alright, time pass fast!!

i am still in the mood when the school just started

yet right now, it almost the end of my journey in NAFA.

yea.. i mean it.. it is gonna be my end of journey in NAFA..

2 more days before my submission of my project and a few more days to my grad show..

i still cannot believe time went so fast..

its been a pleasure to be studying in NAFA..

the pain, happiness, bitterness.. is what that me and my dear friends went through in this three years.. although some did deferred because they cannot handle stress.. but its has been a wonderful time..

i'm glad to have study in NAFA..

anyway, while this period is stressing period, i still manage to have a family gathering with my family.. we went out together for dinner at suki sushi @ Safra Tampines, can't believe its so expensive.. but i guess its worth it? coz is like non stop eating.. HAHAx..

anyway after that, we went for chilling time at the bowling centre.. but we gotta wait around half an hour because there is competition on at that time sadly, so went to play pool with my cousin.. quite bad my skills.. haha i'm lousy at it..

anywya just when we about to finish our second game of pool, there is lanes available ... finally.. it like so long never play le la..

hah.. first frame.. sianz.. i only get 130++ no form.. haha..

second frame.. a shocking surprise.. i didn't get any spares .. but i kinda get alot of strikes.. HAHA..

here goes the pictures that i took for the second frame.

Yea.. JUS is my name.. haha..my english name justin duh! ahha.. CT is my uncle, HUI is my sister and jordan is my cousin.. theres two more names up there, which is my mother and another cousin.. but if i take it.. cannot see.. ahha.. never mind..! focus on me~ HAHAH

ok u see that? first got a strike.. den no form throughout cannot get spare or wad..

however when u see this...

see that 75 points? haha.. my point is being shot up after that! hahah...

9 and a spare allows me to add 20 additional points.. 5 strikes in a row! woot.. nice ah... haha..

it actually makes my from the last 3 to the top.. HAHA...

5 strikes leh.. skill!! haha..

yea.. thats my form..

my best record is actually going 7 strikes in a row.. but cannot here.. cause i'm without my bowling balls.. but nevermind.. i earn twenty five dollars hahah.. because of the 25 dollars, i give it 5 strikes.. hahah! 5 dollar for each strikes.. worth it man..!! haha..

okk.. ahha thats all for today yea.. more updates coming up~

2008-04-12T15:36:00.002+08:00

是否记得我们初次见面？
是否记得我们初次相见？
那时候我就喜欢上你
我就知道你是我的唯一。。。

2008-03-26T19:32:00.002+08:00

ok.. blogging time!
lets see.. blog wad now... hm..
ok... very tired recently
so quite hard to think about my design sia..
busying my things all that.. boring...
nothing to blog!!!!
thats all.. cya

2008-03-18T15:42:00.002+08:00

Time for blogging lor....

HAHA... my blog is so dead la... too lazy to blog sianz..
i am been busying with my school works all that..
kinda sick of this FYP thingy la..
although i still like schooling coz its just better den working already ma..
wah kao.. i just realised i speak alot of SINGlish la... u see.. la leh lor all that OMG!

i just need to improve my english more and get ready for workforce..
but first get past NS first..
i'm recently on training already, running 2.4km in alternate days, lunch change to fruits..
kinda difficult for me, but i still need to push on..
school projects & training are my main piority right now..
i dun even have the time for hanging out all that..
i just miss going out...
i just want to have relationship..
someone to care for..
to care for me also..
sucks la... no time to think.. i gotta go do my works liao.. cya!

2008-02-27T20:39:00.001+08:00

65 words

Speedtest

first try..

2008-02-21T21:45:00.003+08:00

its time to update again, before my blog starts to rot... haha..
anyway, its been tiring ever since school start.. cause of FYP..
but i still loveeee school.. hahax...
friends all that, love the feeling
FYP been kinda stress la, been out of schedule, but hopefully can get back into track..
needa work harder la.. unlike now.. slacking..
alright.. sianzz..

2008-02-09T20:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
Though now den blog, but its still CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
and also the mark of valentine day..
sad to say, 4th year of being alone in valentine day..
sianz..
haha
forget it!
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

2008-01-27T14:38:00.000+08:00

Finally, i'm gona embrak on my tedious journey, to finish up my FYP and graduate..

YOSHH!!
KANBATTE!!

2008-01-15T20:13:00.000+08:00

ok im back in blogging after leaving my blog so dead..
ok! school time~
hahah
and i simply loveddddddd this seminar!!!! which last for 3 days..
hahaha. fun.. brings back the childhood memories~
we gotta create our very own cardboard armour!
and have war!
haha
just like when we are a child~
haha.. fun! those who never come, its a regret. ahhax..
ok i shall stop now.. going to figure out something.. cya~

2008-01-09T21:20:00.000+08:00

ok.. today is wednesday, and i already finish one part of my presentation le..
but the fact now is... i left site pictures...
and case studies!
everyday rain! kinda sucks..
today went out just to take pictures.. BUT IT RAIN!!!
damn it..
argg...
rain.. rain. go away..
come again another day...
please dun rain for once in this week!!!!
STOP THE RAIN!!

2008-01-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

Less than a week more before the FYP storm hits!
and i still haven start my powerpoint presentation..
i just feel that i dun have the moltivation yet to start my powerpoint..
cause i just finish my attachment! still haven tune my body back to school times..
hahax..
kinda lazy also now.. die..
i guess i must do a headstart..
yea.. headstart, from tomorrow when i get a digital camera.. i needa go around shopping.. or should i say site finding.. i still cannot decide whether to choose just a convention hall or built up structure..
haix.. cannot decide.. let me play game first den.. haha.
takecare

2008-01-05T13:51:00.000+08:00

傻瓜情人。。

兴奋的你呀，和我聊到他，有道光映在你脸上
是他送的吧戒指上的光闪闪呀好亮好亮
只是我在无意之间看你眼角泛着泪
你该快乐却有点悲伤

你没说实话笑的很勉强仍对他念念又不忘
关于你和他似乎有隐藏早已和从前不像
你的好他已经不要忘了那美好时光
他已把你推出旧相框

亲爱的情人啊你笑我像个傻瓜你比我傻
他把你遗忘了就像你对我这样快醒醒吧
亲爱的情人啊把戒指快点收下别再想他
你忍住泪却没有(不肯)回答

我知道回忆很难擦掉就像做了记号
不小心心就会动摇
不去想不去要只想我对你好
忘掉那旧日的伤

2008-01-01T15:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008~!

Once again, another year has gone.. and im older by another year..
life has been fast.. 19 years of life has gone.

Life has been tough, but still have to go on..
the pain, happiness, sadness that are being shared.. its really been a tough year.

Gonna get serious with my school work starting from now,
i'm grown up.. need to go into industry and work..
need to get serious in everything, cannot be "dili-dareli" around..

this is the year for me to get started with my fitness, cause i'm going army soon..
this is also the year when i graduate from NAFA and step into workforce.
this is the year where we start afresh..

Let us move on..
Moving on to our dreams..

2007-12-31T12:19:00.000+08:00

The Meaning of Life and Love

a small quarrel eventually leads me to writing this post.
Whats the meaning of life?
Whats the meaning of love?

Eventually, no one can distinguish what is life and what is love..
there is no universal meaning of life and love..
however, to me, it carries a deep meaning that a normal person cannot understand...
family, friends, strangers..
not even a single one can depicts it, cause everyone has its very own defination of life and love inside...

well, understanding what is life and what is love can be said as neither simple nor difficult..
it really depends on how the person wants to interprete it.

i know my english standards are not that good enough..
i cannot type or write english as great as englishman..
yet, i can say that i'm happy with my life and my status right now...

well, what to say..

Life, is all about giving urself the time to work, to have fun, and not to forget, a break.
In this world, we need to work to let ourselves survive, food, money, entertainment...
Having fun means to enjoy and reward urself after a hard day's work.. overdose of fun can lead u to another form of life..
Give yourself a break, after all this fun and hardwork.. u letting ur mentally and physically strength a time to rest, to rest and give urself another chance to work and play.
a chinese proverb which is best used to describe my sentence,
<<>>
ok.. cannot type my chinese word in this comp, using company computer.. kns..

i can say is that, live your own life to the fullest.. work, eat, play, sleep.. its part of our life..
never let unhappy past bother our own future,
throw away the past and move towards the future!
dun let urself <<出入无路, 进退无门.>>!

Love..
Friendship, family, your partner..
all of them gives love..
it can be happiness when u are being loved, or you are giving love to someone..
well, overdose of it leads to high percentage of falling..
and what i'm gonna say after this is for this poor girl, who refused to let go of her past, still clinging on to this unfaithful guy, hoping that he could go back to her..

its nonsense anyway, wad for cry over for someone who u do not deserve it?
what for cry over for someone that dun likes u?
ok.. crying is good.. let go off ur emotions and u feel better..
but, you just can't cryy over and over again..
i know its a bit hard to accept that you have break up with this bastard, but its the fact.
come on, give urself a break, stop thinking of him anymore..
if u keeping thinking and hoping like that, u might become depressed and worsen ur current state.

its not as if hes the only guy that is compatible for u..
theres much more out there for you, waiting for people,
and probably theres another guy with the same personality...
u fallen deep, i understand, u given your all.. but its the guy that doesn't appreciate it!
if you were going to say that i dun understand your feeling,
den you are wrong, i understand it much more den you do, and im willing to give up..
and let fate decide.

just let u forget the past.. dun let the past be ur burden, duh..
its time to move on already..
dun be like a immature kid, clinging on hope..
i know its harsh to say u still a kid, but consider it a fact..
move on girl.. just move on..
the more u cling on.. the more pain u will get in the end..
trust me...
im have the experience before..
free urself girl, love isn't just giving someone.. is also about letting go..

so please heed my advice girl..
u need it alot..
i mean ALOT...

thats all i gotta say to u girl..
anyway this post i written is all for u..
read it up and u shall understand the true meaning of love and life..

take care...

2007-12-27T09:29:00.000+08:00

Im now in my own office blogging..
dead beat now... yesterday didn't have a long sleep.
currently right now im like a zombie..

ok.. blog time.
Yesterday was usual, but with a new project to handle, which the company had been postponing..
their office..
how come i so suay one.. last attachment also design their office. Now this one also.. sianz..
ok.. a few more days left for finishing this attachment.
6 more days..
finally..
i can concentrate on my FYP..
my presentation the start beginning of school..
die.. haven even started doing it..

OK! i know so random!
random,random..

anyway.. thats all i gonna blog for today..
just hoping to finish this attachment soon.

SIANZZZ

to mel: do take care girl, its a hard time for you.
Forget the past, and open your heart towards the future~
take care~

2007-12-26T09:50:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
ok i know its late already.. today is 26th.. but only one day past only ma..
still wish u all~ haha
take care dudes..
still stuck in this stupid office..
zZz..
boring hell..
im bored.

2007-12-17T20:34:00.000+08:00

its kindaa bored in office.. everyday think and draw think and draw... damn it..
lost my handphone on friday also! sad luhs!
friends, if u r kind enough can you send an email about ur handphone number pls.. thanks!
anyway, my picture is done le.. but cannot upload coz i dun have camera phone now.. sad.. nvm..
take care guys!

2007-12-13T12:39:00.000+08:00

Update.

3 weeks 1 day left for finishing attachment.
4weeks 1 days left before school reopens.

Inside office now, blogging..
just done a rough layout of LOREAL show, and fax it to client, now waiting for response.
now slack abit coz going to lunch soon...
later going to crack my brain to design a wedding dinner package..
all the props all that..
just give me HEADACHE..

life so bored when working.. no life.
like what my friend said:

" PEOPLE USUALLY WORK TO LIVE,
NOW PEOPLE LIVE TO WORK!"

You guys agree?
sad right, due to the fact that Singapore is increasing price rates everywhere!
Food, Oil, Living Standards... now even TAXI!!!
wad de hell... singapore kinda sucks, they gave money to the adults.. but in the end adults still have to top up money to pay the taxes all the shit! i am wondering is the GOVT really giving money to us? or they just want us to top up the money and give back to them? MIGHT AS WELL DUN GIVE LO! SINCE GIVE BACK.. stupid right singapore govt.
Stupid govt. Never give money to people like us. Only give money to the sportsman and sportswoman who won in SEA games! GIVE SO MUCH MONEY FOR THEM! MIGHT AS WELL GIVE US LA! just one stupid medal give so much money! is FAME more important meh!? i see the news about the money things for the SEA games participants i also fed up!... KNS..
Damn it.
hopefully when i grow up, earn enough money, den migrate to better country and live. IT sucks in singapore! i rather go Taiwan and work rather den in singapore. more happy more life.

sucks..

2007-12-12T09:38:00.000+08:00

SLEEPY!!
I'm so sleepy!!
3 weeks 2 days left for finishing this attachment..
another week for research about FYP..
it seems as though i do not have a break during this term holidays..
haix..
sadly, due to the fact that i have nearly become bankrupt, i got no choice but to work and work.
BUT IM SLEEPY! how?! tahan shixiang tahan!

singapore lose to thailand 3-0 in soccer!
seeing the match seem as though singapore are being played..
Singapore is such as weak team!
thailand have all players around the court and when attacking, midfielders would help them score! for singapore? SHIT ass.. only strikers up front, no supports from midfielders!SURE LOSE WAD! see them play KNS! omg... soccer in singapore canot make it.

ok im bullshitting liao... coz now in office warming up.
thats all ba..
im sleepy..

SLEEPY!

2007-12-11T09:58:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggy,

life simply sucks
every morning, i had this feeling...
a weird feeling..
makes me lonely.
like being abandoned..
i just feel that way..
something like im all alone in this world..

..haix..

wad happen to my usual self?
wad happen?
wad?
someone tell me...

i feel so lonely..

2007-12-10T12:42:00.000+08:00

BORING..
now in attachment workplace..
Life so lonely..
i just wish there is a girlfriend keep pestering me..
life sucks..
i wish i could go back school..
finish my FYP
go NS and train, train train....

boring...

2007-12-09T21:22:00.000+08:00

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